I feel a lot of improvement! For 20 years I’ve been spinning my wheels, trying to figure out why I can’t get out of this situation, why I can’t understand what’s going on with me, or why, and I’ve been efforting in the dark all this time in difficulty. That’s a long time to be in the dark and be frustrated! So it’s a huge relief to finally get it!
I feel within myself a lightening of codependency. The huge change I see is that before I wasn’t able to see my part in it, or the reason for why I was being that way, which was the need to control. It was so frustrating to not be able to see what I was doing or why, but now I finally do, and seeing this is strangely freeing and just such a relief to find an answer. Other healers just told me to let it go and lighten up, but I wasn’t able to, even though I tried. Now it’s easy!
I’ve also always had a hard time really feeling true gratitude, and was always preoccupied with the trauma I had growing up and how that was affecting me. I always felt like “wow” when others shared their gratitude, and thought “I just don’t feel it, something is wrong with me” and everyone tells you to be grateful, and I tried, but to be able to actually really, truly feel that gratitude, which now I do - it’s amazing. Other spiritual teachers I’ve worked with have told me these things for years, which I’ve done, but nothing ever made an actual change until now. It is amazing.
Kim H
San Diego, California